Here in the U.S. we have a few big holidays coming up. Thanksgiving happens in a little over a week. In December, the most publicized, of course, is Christmas. Out of personal choice I celebrate Yule and the Winter Solstice. I do realize there are several others and hope everyone the greatest of times.
Holidays are another bittersweet time for me. I love to see my children so happy and full of excitement. Their faces lit up with joy. It makes my heart less heavy from the burden of memories. The memories are not sad. I remember most of our family being together every Thanksgiving and Christmas. We talked and laughed. We ate and played football (not soccer).We enjoyed our time together. It’s been almost 20 years since our last holiday as a family. I don’t think I could go back to try either. That’s the weight on my shoulders digging into my back.
So for everyone I probably won’t see again this year, please know you’re in my thoughts and heart. I don’t come cause I don’t care. I can’t. Bear with me as I write my novels in my own personal therapy. I’ll find my way.
I love you all.